Almost there, almost there …
Faster, faster …
Out of nowhere, the joy seemed to overwhelm him. Finally, when he really arrived, his naked skin felt the warmth of the sun, which was different from the real and gentle touch of the light. Everything was so real and wonderful that it wanted to make people cry, but everything suddenly appeared in front of him, so that he was caught off guard. He just raised his smile and froze in his mouth-
A room is made up of black and white colors, and the same black and white photo is hung in the middle of the room.
The photo man is himself!
He looked around and saw several familiar and unfamiliar faces, all of which were filled with sadness that he had never seen before, and everyone’s eyes were covered with a dark sky, and the negative emotions were so depressing that they collapsed.
Parents, friends, teammates and miracles … everyone is here.
And I’m having my own funeral here—
Black is crazy to pull his parents’ hands. He wants to tell them-
"What are you doing? I’m right here. Why do you want me to organize a funeral for no reason? "
"It’s not funny to joke like this … will you stop playing?"
"I’m right here. Look back. Look back at me!"
However, his back hand ran through his mother’s body in this way, and he witnessed this scene in disbelief. He made the second, third … many times … and tried several times, but none of his hands could touch others.
It’s just as disappointing that he went to help others.
Finally, he gave up the eyes that stumbled and collapsed in the middle of the room, which were undisguised, small or wailing, unable to converge or sorrowful or sad … The atmosphere of despair and sadness surrounded him so much that he almost couldn’t breathe. Finally, he sat down and curled himself into a ball. He bowed his head and buried his head deeply in his arm, so he cried uncontrollably and silently as if he had lost the world.
After rebirth, his memory has been intermittent, and some fragments have gradually blurred into illusion that he can’t see clearly.
It turned out that his memory was degraded … Those were just lies that he came to deceive himself.
What is the sense of being getting lower and lower?
What, just others passing by, others or perception?
Why did he try so hard to call those people’s names at that time and no one looked back at him?
What, what, what …
There are so many "what", so … What is the truth?
The reason has always been simple-
Because Heizhe is already dead there.
In the first year of high school, I defeated miracles one after another and found those people’s original appearance. After Vulcan went to the United States that holiday, after he made an agreement with everyone, I played basketball together that summer …
He was already pronounced dead before being taken to the hospital because of a sudden car accident.
At that time, the soul was separated from the body and looked down at itself in the middle of the night, but the body was still unwilling to accept such cruel truth-the worst thing happened when everything was getting better and better.
Car accident, blood, death …
Convention, basketball, future …
These were broken into pieces in his brain at that time, and the pieces of broken materials stuck in his brain were unbearable and painful, and then … Hazel also collapsed.
This time he is completely dead. Death is his soul.
When he woke up again, his head had already fabricated a "beautiful" and illusory world.
Black can’t bear to part with this world, but if he wants to continue in this world, he needs many, many things to cling to. Good things are always too fragile to support him along the way … and it becomes the so-called "hate"-
It is because he betrayed the agreement, but he abruptly overthrew the miracle.
I chose to escape from him, and I also counted the fault of the department as a miracle.
……
It’s natural that you can’t see me behind you because I’m already … dead.
Great, that’s great. I finally have an excuse to die in this world.
But it’s always my fault. Why should I let you bear this for me?
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry-
You are so important to me that I still don’t want to forget you even though I am dead.
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry-
After all, I am too greedy. Even if I die, I want to play basketball with you again.
Everything in this world has two sides and deception.
I regard your kindness as a lie, your feelings as a deception, and your friendship as a scam …
What about fruit? It turns out that the person who lied from beginning to end was just myself.
I can lie to myself. What else can I do?
I am not qualified to be your friend, and I am not qualified to be treated really by you.
Everything is my fault.
You can punish as timid, selfish, dark, greedy and lazy as you like … me.
I’m willing to bear it. I’m willing to say anything
Because-this is my original sin.